On Energy..

I’ve been thinking a lot about energy, especially near the end of year.

Where are you putting your energy?
Your time.
Your money.
Your thoughts.
Your emotions.

Because this is who you are becoming.

It requires deep consciousness to become aware of the person you are. And from this place, you can create the person you’re becoming. I don’t think we’re here to ignore our natural self or to constantly try to change oneself — but rather to exist in a way that makes you feel most alive.

Do you like who you are?

Are we meant to control our own change?

What does it look like to design our lives versus surrender to the life before us?

I think the person we’re meant to become feels a nudge from a source greater than ourselves. We begin to feel misalignment around what’s not meant for us, and discomfort arrives when we shift our lives into alignment.

You can let go of who you think you are. You can let go of the plans and ideas you had for yourself. You can also let go of the people, places, and thing that feel out of alignment. You can walk the path that makes you feel most alive and let everything else go. This is the path of becoming and it calls forth all of your energy.

You don’t need to force your own growth— I think I tried to do this for a while. Creating space for growth comes with letting go— not pushing harder.

If you haven’t really let go, you’ll know — because you will feel tension. When you really let go, you’ll feel no distance from your desires because you accept that it’s all within you. Perhaps this is what nervous system regulation feels like?

All that’s meant to be comes easily, without any of the tension. You’re not here to become someone else, but to witness where your energy wants to go — and trust it.

P.S. As a practical way to move into the new year, there are two practices I’ve enjoyed:

The first is the calendar audit by Rachel Hollis. Looking back on the past year — not at goals or intentions, but at where your time actually went. What did you consistently make space for? What drained you? What expanded you? It offers an honest awareness of where your energy lived, and from that place, you get to begin scheduling the next year with more clarity and alignment.

The second is The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer. I’ve been contemplating force versus flow — accepting life as it arrives, without preference, while still allowing the very human part of you to exist. The part with desires, opinions, emotions, and fear. Not bypassing your humanity, but loosening your grip on how you think things should look.